A Man Is Playing Pinball Behind Me — I did not expect this. Sitting at a wine bar I’ve never been to before, alone but for the proprietor. Until a short man comes in and starts talking on the phone about how he was hired as a temp by Tesla before going to work for a lumber company…

What Next? A Hike to Nowhere in Particular But Somewhere With Someone In Mind.

As I begin to drift off I feel a choice between panic and acceptance — My guard goes down as I relax — experiencing myself instead of presenting me. Alone. Afraid before the universe, it’s not so bad, why can’t it last? Upon awakening, I’m momentarily unaware of where I am, and I feel joyful. Imagine that. Just happy, not happy despite the issues, or…

She and I happened to talk at the party. My wife laughed with other friends while her date chatted up two twenty-five-year-olds by the food table. — As I talked with her I couldn’t help noticing her cleavage in her low-cut dress. My wife glanced over and gave me that extra-bright smile she gives when she sees I may be interested in someone. God how I love her! As we kept talking I know she was well…

Maybe a second before the end I saw through it

As I sat at an outdoor cafe without a mask — …the sun shone down hard. And I realized I’m as open to others as I choose to be. I could have come here a thousand times to this one. Yet I could have sat closed in my own thoughts. I could be here one time and this time open my…

Shining Through the top of a Nearly Closed Window

For the moment can write again — When I first came here there were no blinds in the office windows. In the days before the movers came it wasn’t our home yet, just a house we’d bought. Now the blinds are almost completely closed Except for a few gaps, and the skylights, my office is closed off…